I went to the course today,but didn't attend classes just studied in the library.I had an English class at 2 pm so i had to wait,as waiting i learned that there was an organization for students,i thougth i could spend my time there by 2 pm,got my toast and went to watch the bands they were getting ready then,checking sounds etc.I was alone,none of my friends were there,some of them came and checked what was going on and then they probably didn't like it and left but i didn't mind being alone,had a chance to crticize all the bands(and the English class called off so i had a chance to watch them all)
the first band was a rap band,they SUCKED,i couldn't help laughing when the guy said "çek çek Karacan and Yeah,Yay etc :D you dont care the lesson that rap gives you:P ,when the rapper seems so stupid,i mean they always act like they know all,they rebel against everything etc. but who are you to?they should have decided who was gonna talk to the audience or should have respect each other as talking,they kept interrupting each other,which made me laugh again.
The second band had two bonus guys,its a shame that Gizem was not there and the vocal was female and though her voice was ok,it seemed like the stage was not her place,she seemed like a loser there, she looked like a housewife or what she wore made her look like that. They played 5 songs i guess,her voice was good,she sang from Sertab Erener,Candan Erçetin etc. that was quite boring
and they made a huge mistake by playing or trying to play Don't Speak from No Doubt cuz her accent was disgusting,when she said,wat yor tinking i was like "dont"....cant you see you cant do it,try to make it better or simply dont do it
aandd the last band saved the day, they just played drums,tomtom etc and i really liked it,everyone did,the guy i dont remember his name now kept talking to the audience,called people to stage to dance etc. and little girls liked that :) little girls also liked the guys that were playing,while some of them were screaming "Cankan",one of them came to the stage,saying i want to meet Derya,He came,blushing a little bit- and she said"i think you look like Edward",Edward my lovely Edward belongs to 12-year-old girls now i guess,i dont like it,he was special anyway
After the show,i caught one of the members of the band and asked what the name of the band was,he replied:Working Magic Hands,i checked it now on google but they have no pages or facebook,i guess i'll add one of them to my facebook so that i will know when they play somewhere in İzmir again,anything different is always fine ;)
31 Mayıs 2009 Pazar
28 Mayıs 2009 Perşembe
Caps and Robes
hellö
mom is mad at me though she doesnt say anything,because it was me yesterday who said"i'll be on the course all day tomorrow" and now i'm here,writing when i am supposed to be at the course,studying geography with the teacher whom i asked 3-4 days a go if i could show my wrong answers to her.I couldn't go cuz i couldnt wake up and am really tiredd and am so eager to write about yesterday (graduation ceremony) while the iron is still hot
we(Casot,Müge,Merve,Ezgisu) decided to meet at two pm to go to hairdresser's,it is near merve's home,i was not sure about how i want my hair to look,guessed there ,they'd help me choose or they'd recommend me smth,but they were all dumb they couldn't even do what i wanted let alone recomending something,i didn't like my hair i looked like a villager bride,and when bad make-up added to my face,i thought about Not going there,my friend's sis did our make-ups she was good at it,but it just didnt go with my face,i tried to wipe the pink blusher anyway then when we at last were ready we took a taxi to school,i found my mom sitting on the first line,(here,my friend called i went to course,gonna keep writing now ),as were were the 7th class we had to wait a lot,but i didn't get bored cuz we kept taking photos and talking,and watching what other students did when they were called to the stage.Our class' song was from Hadise, i didn't like it :S 4th class's was Queen,I bet noone even knew Queen there,it wouldnt be a problem for them if they played Hadise when they were called,anyway.The most enjoyable part was wearing robes and caps,gonna add a pic of me here :)Müge and Merve intoduced our class,they called everyone,saying some good things about them,i dont remember mine now exactly,but im gonna write here later after i watch the video again.
i was called and went there and got my diploma,kissing my teacher.When the whole class (11 ppl) got called,we throw our caps in the air and then more picss taken,and we were done.
Then we all (about 8 ppl) went to Merve's to change for Angel,her mom prepared us smthing quickly and we ate them.When we were on the bus-stop waiting for 85,it was already 9:30 pm.When we reached there,i was dissapointed cuz my so-called gay guy was not there :(.I got boooorrredd,everyone was flirting with eachother,nobody was dancing,dj sucked i asked him"could you NOT play turkish music plz" and he said OK but after 4-5 songs ,he played it again i didn't drink much but got a little bit drunk again,mom saw me for the first time like that :F
wish gizem,casot(left after graduation),ekin,mükü.... had come too,
and ı had a dream last night,i was on the plane to London,and the plane kept stopping to get people,and they were all wearing robes and caps,graduated from their unis or high schools but i was not wearing,i searched for it and here:,
Airplane1. Escape from the mundane exigencies of the lower world.
2. Freedom.
3. The search for higher consciousness. Travel into the higher realms.
this would possibly mean i travel to somewhere and that somewhere was clear as i said before:England but i wonder why i was not wearing a cab and a robe,does this mean,yes i'm going to England but not as a studenttt :(:(:(:(:( hope its not that pfff
mom is mad at me though she doesnt say anything,because it was me yesterday who said"i'll be on the course all day tomorrow" and now i'm here,writing when i am supposed to be at the course,studying geography with the teacher whom i asked 3-4 days a go if i could show my wrong answers to her.I couldn't go cuz i couldnt wake up and am really tiredd and am so eager to write about yesterday (graduation ceremony) while the iron is still hot
we(Casot,Müge,Merve,Ezgisu) decided to meet at two pm to go to hairdresser's,it is near merve's home,i was not sure about how i want my hair to look,guessed there ,they'd help me choose or they'd recommend me smth,but they were all dumb they couldn't even do what i wanted let alone recomending something,i didn't like my hair i looked like a villager bride,and when bad make-up added to my face,i thought about Not going there,my friend's sis did our make-ups she was good at it,but it just didnt go with my face,i tried to wipe the pink blusher anyway then when we at last were ready we took a taxi to school,i found my mom sitting on the first line,(here,my friend called i went to course,gonna keep writing now ),as were were the 7th class we had to wait a lot,but i didn't get bored cuz we kept taking photos and talking,and watching what other students did when they were called to the stage.Our class' song was from Hadise, i didn't like it :S 4th class's was Queen,I bet noone even knew Queen there,it wouldnt be a problem for them if they played Hadise when they were called,anyway.The most enjoyable part was wearing robes and caps,gonna add a pic of me here :)Müge and Merve intoduced our class,they called everyone,saying some good things about them,i dont remember mine now exactly,but im gonna write here later after i watch the video again.
i was called and went there and got my diploma,kissing my teacher.When the whole class (11 ppl) got called,we throw our caps in the air and then more picss taken,and we were done.
Then we all (about 8 ppl) went to Merve's to change for Angel,her mom prepared us smthing quickly and we ate them.When we were on the bus-stop waiting for 85,it was already 9:30 pm.When we reached there,i was dissapointed cuz my so-called gay guy was not there :(.I got boooorrredd,everyone was flirting with eachother,nobody was dancing,dj sucked i asked him"could you NOT play turkish music plz" and he said OK but after 4-5 songs ,he played it again i didn't drink much but got a little bit drunk again,mom saw me for the first time like that :F
wish gizem,casot(left after graduation),ekin,mükü.... had come too,
and ı had a dream last night,i was on the plane to London,and the plane kept stopping to get people,and they were all wearing robes and caps,graduated from their unis or high schools but i was not wearing,i searched for it and here:,
Airplane1. Escape from the mundane exigencies of the lower world.
2. Freedom.
3. The search for higher consciousness. Travel into the higher realms.
this would possibly mean i travel to somewhere and that somewhere was clear as i said before:England but i wonder why i was not wearing a cab and a robe,does this mean,yes i'm going to England but not as a studenttt :(:(:(:(:( hope its not that pfff
24 Mayıs 2009 Pazar
Hello
hello
lots happened since my b-day
1)An old friend of mine,Damla came from Samsun to visit her relatives and she met me as well,we went out and then came to my house,i couldn't be a good host as i was in deep thoughts about something else and couldn't help frowning and was sleepy,but she seemed alright with that, i guess she loves me,thats why being with me was enough for her,thanks :)
2)I ate mussel for the first time (yes,ive been living in İzmir since 2005 and just tasted it,but i'm not so positive towards experiencing new tastes as-when in London my lovely Japanese friends took me to a chinese restarurant and i remember we ordered chicken with teriyaki(?) sauce,(CTY) and some kind of soup and sushi,at first i was so eager to taste new foods but my eagerness was cut by CTS,(the sauce was sweet and chicken with sweet sauce was not good ) but i was still hopeful about sushi -somehow- and took one, before i couldnt chew it completely,i thougth i should take it to out to a napkin or i was gonna throw it all up,and i took it out,apologizing.But in mussel case,all was different,i really liked it yummy
3)met a guy while looking for a gift for Buse but i've got nothing to say about a ŞOPAR here(just wanted to mention)
4)Ive been sooooo over Geography these days that i hate it even more now
5))I learned/saw that that guy is not gay,guess my friends got him wrong,i feel bad now for thinking they may have lied to me but needed to think about all possibilities
6)Gizem came back from İstanbul,meeting a Bonus there
7)Casot couldnt put up with kittens and gave them someone else and she hates cats now :D
i guess that's all
and i have my school's cap ceremony on wednesday but i haven't decided yet whether to go or not,mom says i should and if i decide to go there,it'll be just because of that cap,i want to wear it,and want to take lots of pics with that on my head :D ahh and not just cap but we'll have gowns as well,i hope they dont smell pee,they may :D
lots happened since my b-day
1)An old friend of mine,Damla came from Samsun to visit her relatives and she met me as well,we went out and then came to my house,i couldn't be a good host as i was in deep thoughts about something else and couldn't help frowning and was sleepy,but she seemed alright with that, i guess she loves me,thats why being with me was enough for her,thanks :)
2)I ate mussel for the first time (yes,ive been living in İzmir since 2005 and just tasted it,but i'm not so positive towards experiencing new tastes as-when in London my lovely Japanese friends took me to a chinese restarurant and i remember we ordered chicken with teriyaki(?) sauce,(CTY) and some kind of soup and sushi,at first i was so eager to taste new foods but my eagerness was cut by CTS,(the sauce was sweet and chicken with sweet sauce was not good ) but i was still hopeful about sushi -somehow- and took one, before i couldnt chew it completely,i thougth i should take it to out to a napkin or i was gonna throw it all up,and i took it out,apologizing.But in mussel case,all was different,i really liked it yummy
3)met a guy while looking for a gift for Buse but i've got nothing to say about a ŞOPAR here(just wanted to mention)
4)Ive been sooooo over Geography these days that i hate it even more now
5))I learned/saw that that guy is not gay,guess my friends got him wrong,i feel bad now for thinking they may have lied to me but needed to think about all possibilities
6)Gizem came back from İstanbul,meeting a Bonus there
7)Casot couldnt put up with kittens and gave them someone else and she hates cats now :D
i guess that's all
and i have my school's cap ceremony on wednesday but i haven't decided yet whether to go or not,mom says i should and if i decide to go there,it'll be just because of that cap,i want to wear it,and want to take lots of pics with that on my head :D ahh and not just cap but we'll have gowns as well,i hope they dont smell pee,they may :D
18 Mayıs 2009 Pazartesi
Noel's hunger
i found this in my school's music class,the moment i saw this i was like "Noel Fielding was here" he came,bit the record and leftthis is his bite
he was just not that hungry this time but it was Noel2-3 months a go me and Casot bought postcards to send Noel,we thought he'd like it,we thought maybe he would give a place to these in Nabootique :)
I may add some silver on the envelope as he loves shiny shiny things :)
Louis vi-French Duke --was not a duke though :P
i want to be drunk or want to sleep all the time so that i wouldn't have to think about things that annoy me and i wouldnt feel guilty
you are happy if you dont expect much,its ok when you get it and if you dont,its still ok,but when you put strict restrictions to yourself like i do,then you feel like shit even in the process of getting it,i dont want to talk about what happens when you dont get it.
ahhhhhh im being boring againnn,sorry
ok gonna show you something funny now
this is Louis vi of France,i wanted to know more about him after watching a movie about him,it was all French,though i didnt get a word of it, i kept watching as it was so interesting and funny to see what they wore here is a couple of pics of Louis Vi,he looks sooooo funny,i wonder why he had to show his legs,it doesnt look sexy etc. it looks just funny :D how many times a day would he go to the toilet,i feel bad for him or for his servants :D
you are happy if you dont expect much,its ok when you get it and if you dont,its still ok,but when you put strict restrictions to yourself like i do,then you feel like shit even in the process of getting it,i dont want to talk about what happens when you dont get it.
ahhhhhh im being boring againnn,sorry
ok gonna show you something funny now
this is Louis vi of France,i wanted to know more about him after watching a movie about him,it was all French,though i didnt get a word of it, i kept watching as it was so interesting and funny to see what they wore here is a couple of pics of Louis Vi,he looks sooooo funny,i wonder why he had to show his legs,it doesnt look sexy etc. it looks just funny :D how many times a day would he go to the toilet,i feel bad for him or for his servants :D
17 Mayıs 2009 Pazar
Happy Birtday To Me
JUNKIE QUEEN:casot made this,this is how i looked n that night hahahha D:
home again to get ready and i waited for two of my friends to come to my home as i didnt want to go to Angel alone,they came (late) and we took our way to there,when we reached Angel,there was live music,some guys were playing shitty shitty songs and i prayed that it would end before my friends came and it luckily ended :clap
i recognized a guy working there,and i liked him and kept talking to him hahaha the more i got drunk the cuter he seemed (esp when he laughed) and all of my friends were aware of this of course,laughing even when i asked him to bring the cake :D the music was shit,i must say,began with good songs then i can even remember hearing Serdar falan :D,but i get that you dont mind that much about it when youre errr drunk,anyway we soon realized that it was a gay bar hahhaha, i didnt mind having them around but some of my friends did and as we didnt want to miss the last boat to KSK we had to leave,of course i didnt want to leave(had plans in my mind) then mete told me that if i liked he could told him to come with us, he did this to persuade me to go out :D i said OK and i dont remember much after that we came home,Gizem put me to her bed,and the only thing that i remember before closing my eyes is guy's playing a game on computer.
the next day,i got up 6 in the morning i guess,everyone was sleeping,so i tried to sleep more and thought about the previous night,all seemed so blurry at first but then i started to remember things in order,scenes flashing up in my head,me hating the music,me throwing up,me opening my presents and liking them and me talking to the guy...
though it was still early,i was dying to know more about what happened the previous night and i went to the room where gizem and ekin slept and they told me that mete talked to him,said him that one of his friends liked him and the guy asked is it a girl?and when mete said YES he said that he was GAY,i was like "whattttt"
happy birthday to me
16th may was my birthday,and now im 18 :) Although,at first i didn't want to celebrate it for some stupid (!) reasons now i can easily say that im glad i did it,and im so eager to write about that night here :)
On Thursday me and Müge went to find a appropriate bar/club to celebrate my b-day,I was hopeless to find somewhere i like, though.We came acroos a bar that Merve talked about it the other day,saying her friend's friend was its owner and i should go and see there,we got in and i liked the place,it is not that big,i liked it being so and drinks rnot expensive so i thought yeah its the best i can find :D the manager (i guess) told me that there would be a DJ,i was ok with this as i wanted to dance silly but i quickly asked him if they were playing those Turkish songs (like Serdar Ortaç etc ıggghh) he said no no no,we dont,i said ok,and went to order a B-day cake,as there was not a brochure about what they can make and as i decided to do these in the last minute i simply ordered a cake for 15ppl and told them to write 18th on it all in pink hahah after arranging this,i went back to mee
t my friends and had hubble-bubble with mint,i wanted to get back home early as i had planned to dye my hair (to red) that night,mom did it,she did it well this time, the last time she dyed my hair (to black) she was angry with me about smth i dont remember now and after she had dyed it,i could see some shining red bits on my head hahaha that's the new hair,i just took it for you :P <------(nobody follows my blog though haghhf) the next day i woke up early to get ready for school,though im finished with there now,i still have to go there at times to give mom's petition which indicates that she does know that i dont go to school any more to get ready for MÖ.SS and YDS,anyway i gave it to a bitch called C*N* :D and got my transcript and reference letters AT LASTTT,after waiting for 2 hours for school manager to come and sign my transcript etc,i was all done with school,then met my mom to go to the hairdresser's (i could have killed the man,as when i got back to home,my hair didnt look so different from the way it had been before i went to the hairdresser's and i had to straighten it :@) and i bought these high-heeled shoes......
16th may was my birthday,and now im 18 :) Although,at first i didn't want to celebrate it for some stupid (!) reasons now i can easily say that im glad i did it,and im so eager to write about that night here :)
On Thursday me and Müge went to find a appropriate bar/club to celebrate my b-day,I was hopeless to find somewhere i like, though.We came acroos a bar that Merve talked about it the other day,saying her friend's friend was its owner and i should go and see there,we got in and i liked the place,it is not that big,i liked it being so and drinks rnot expensive so i thought yeah its the best i can find :D the manager (i guess) told me that there would be a DJ,i was ok with this as i wanted to dance silly but i quickly asked him if they were playing those Turkish songs (like Serdar Ortaç etc ıggghh) he said no no no,we dont,i said ok,and went to order a B-day cake,as there was not a brochure about what they can make and as i decided to do these in the last minute i simply ordered a cake for 15ppl and told them to write 18th on it all in pink hahah after arranging this,i went back to mee
t my friends and had hubble-bubble with mint,i wanted to get back home early as i had planned to dye my hair (to red) that night,mom did it,she did it well this time, the last time she dyed my hair (to black) she was angry with me about smth i dont remember now and after she had dyed it,i could see some shining red bits on my head hahaha that's the new hair,i just took it for you :P <------(nobody follows my blog though haghhf) the next day i woke up early to get ready for school,though im finished with there now,i still have to go there at times to give mom's petition which indicates that she does know that i dont go to school any more to get ready for MÖ.SS and YDS,anyway i gave it to a bitch called C*N* :D and got my transcript and reference letters AT LASTTT,after waiting for 2 hours for school manager to come and sign my transcript etc,i was all done with school,then met my mom to go to the hairdresser's (i could have killed the man,as when i got back to home,my hair didnt look so different from the way it had been before i went to the hairdresser's and i had to straighten it :@) and i bought these high-heeled shoes...... 
home again to get ready and i waited for two of my friends to come to my home as i didnt want to go to Angel alone,they came (late) and we took our way to there,when we reached Angel,there was live music,some guys were playing shitty shitty songs and i prayed that it would end before my friends came and it luckily ended :clap
i recognized a guy working there,and i liked him and kept talking to him hahaha the more i got drunk the cuter he seemed (esp when he laughed) and all of my friends were aware of this of course,laughing even when i asked him to bring the cake :D the music was shit,i must say,began with good songs then i can even remember hearing Serdar falan :D,but i get that you dont mind that much about it when youre errr drunk,anyway we soon realized that it was a gay bar hahhaha, i didnt mind having them around but some of my friends did and as we didnt want to miss the last boat to KSK we had to leave,of course i didnt want to leave(had plans in my mind) then mete told me that if i liked he could told him to come with us, he did this to persuade me to go out :D i said OK and i dont remember much after that we came home,Gizem put me to her bed,and the only thing that i remember before closing my eyes is guy's playing a game on computer.
the next day,i got up 6 in the morning i guess,everyone was sleeping,so i tried to sleep more and thought about the previous night,all seemed so blurry at first but then i started to remember things in order,scenes flashing up in my head,me hating the music,me throwing up,me opening my presents and liking them and me talking to the guy...
though it was still early,i was dying to know more about what happened the previous night and i went to the room where gizem and ekin slept and they told me that mete talked to him,said him that one of his friends liked him and the guy asked is it a girl?and when mete said YES he said that he was GAY,i was like "whattttt"
i wanted to hear all these again from metes mouth and we went to wake guys up,and talked about this,all said"dont be stupid etc". i said fine but yesterday's main topic was HIM,him being gay,him being rabbit face etc.
now ı plan to go there again as i dont think he is gay :S we'll see whatll happen next time i go there,probably this Tuesday. pff
I REGRET REGRET not taking any photos that night, i feel so bad about it,me or my friends could have taken some photos but we didnt,i was after smth else,and it seems like they were so as well
Note:Casot has three lovely kittens (watched a video of them,they looked very small ) she named them Vince(Noir),Shinigami and Minerva i guess,,i say i guess cuz she changed their name a lot,for example Shinigami's name was Gökçe once hahaha
now ı plan to go there again as i dont think he is gay :S we'll see whatll happen next time i go there,probably this Tuesday. pff
I REGRET REGRET not taking any photos that night, i feel so bad about it,me or my friends could have taken some photos but we didnt,i was after smth else,and it seems like they were so as well
Note:Casot has three lovely kittens (watched a video of them,they looked very small ) she named them Vince(Noir),Shinigami and Minerva i guess,,i say i guess cuz she changed their name a lot,for example Shinigami's name was Gökçe once hahaha
13 Mayıs 2009 Çarşamba
Mortified,really !
today was supposed to be the last day of my high school life,but it couldn't be,because of my irresponsible behaviours,i had an exam today (logic :S) and i didnt do anything about it yesterday as i thought i would write what i need on my desk,theres no point in knowing all those unuseful things not epecially now when i have lots in my mind,anyway,she came (during the exam) and saw what we wrote on desks and the exam was over,i asked her if she could do an oral examination the next day and she said:we'll see,this may mean yes,so now i studied and am ready for tomorrow,i didnt study it yesterday just not to waste my time (i thought studying maths or geography would be much useful) and as it'll be much harder,i spent more time studying on it today,thats ironic,isn't it?
and not a nice thing to do when you request reference letters from your teachers (i didn't want her to write,though, as she doesnt know me,why?-because she doesnt attend classes much,even today,on examination day,she was late for 10 mins :S )
so now i have to go to school (!) one more day and i wont be able to dye my hair tonight,gonna do it tomorrow :S hope all goes well tomo :S
Note:I got vaccinated again today,(Hepatit B-didnt hurt,i actually liked it)
and not a nice thing to do when you request reference letters from your teachers (i didn't want her to write,though, as she doesnt know me,why?-because she doesnt attend classes much,even today,on examination day,she was late for 10 mins :S )
so now i have to go to school (!) one more day and i wont be able to dye my hair tonight,gonna do it tomorrow :S hope all goes well tomo :S
Note:I got vaccinated again today,(Hepatit B-didnt hurt,i actually liked it)
9 Mayıs 2009 Cumartesi
Twitter Day
HellÖÖÖ
nothing much happened today,really.but i want to talk about my stupid dream last night
i was in a Placebo concert i dont know if it was in Turkey or not but as i left the concert and came home to pee :D guees it was here hahahah İ was there with Casot and i saw there were lots of shiny gloves on the stage when i saw them i jumped on the stage (there were no security guards :S ) and i started to throw it to the crowd,well one to the crowd one to my pocket hahaha and then as i said before i went back to home to pee :D and before i could reach Placebo again i woke up to another silly day and even before breakfast i did some tests but i couldn't finish it as i got really bored,and it may sound stupid now but while i was dressing i couldn't find my fav trousers though i looked for it everywhere and i started to cry but it was not for the trousers,it was like i just found a proper (!) reason to get angry,i guess i did it because i am under a lot of stress these days,because ÖSS and YDS getting closer and weather gets hotter day by day and i never seem to get what i want and my birthday s getting closer as well but i dont feel like doing anything on that day for some reasons and i still havent registered for Ielts or Toefl :@ and lots more and mom's idea for cheering me up was to make a new style to my hair which made me look like a freak anyway i picked another trouser and went to the course,reluctantly.I didn't attend the last class again its been like a habit now,it was philosophy and we decided to go to Konak Pier to get Bkool,i didn't get,though.And as tomorrow is Mother's day i thought i should buy something for my mom,there was nothing in Pier that i thought my mom would like but i bought a necklace for her, its a imitation of "heart of the ocean" youll remember it from Titanic,they were looking for it and there were %50 discount on it so i got it and came home,found mom doing Yoga again and that's all
ohhh and i was about to forget :P i got a Twitter account today,texted to check and it worked,this made me happy hahhaha :D
nothing much happened today,really.but i want to talk about my stupid dream last night
i was in a Placebo concert i dont know if it was in Turkey or not but as i left the concert and came home to pee :D guees it was here hahahah İ was there with Casot and i saw there were lots of shiny gloves on the stage when i saw them i jumped on the stage (there were no security guards :S ) and i started to throw it to the crowd,well one to the crowd one to my pocket hahaha and then as i said before i went back to home to pee :D and before i could reach Placebo again i woke up to another silly day and even before breakfast i did some tests but i couldn't finish it as i got really bored,and it may sound stupid now but while i was dressing i couldn't find my fav trousers though i looked for it everywhere and i started to cry but it was not for the trousers,it was like i just found a proper (!) reason to get angry,i guess i did it because i am under a lot of stress these days,because ÖSS and YDS getting closer and weather gets hotter day by day and i never seem to get what i want and my birthday s getting closer as well but i dont feel like doing anything on that day for some reasons and i still havent registered for Ielts or Toefl :@ and lots more and mom's idea for cheering me up was to make a new style to my hair which made me look like a freak anyway i picked another trouser and went to the course,reluctantly.I didn't attend the last class again its been like a habit now,it was philosophy and we decided to go to Konak Pier to get Bkool,i didn't get,though.And as tomorrow is Mother's day i thought i should buy something for my mom,there was nothing in Pier that i thought my mom would like but i bought a necklace for her, its a imitation of "heart of the ocean" youll remember it from Titanic,they were looking for it and there were %50 discount on it so i got it and came home,found mom doing Yoga again and that's all
ohhh and i was about to forget :P i got a Twitter account today,texted to check and it worked,this made me happy hahhaha :D
8 Mayıs 2009 Cuma
One more boring day !
i woke up even earlier today (5:45 am) to write the samples of reference letter down to give my teachers at school,yes i brought them samples,and yess they call themselves teacher,even one of them call herself Turkish/Literature teacher,which means -i think- that she should know all types of writing,cosindering now that it has been her who taught (!) us to write things like essay etc.And when i asked her if she could do that for me,she simply said:I dont know how to write it,i've never done it,bring samples to me.".We didn't came to this so easy but i'm not feeling like telling the other story.
She may be stupid enough not to get what a reference letter must contain by herself, but she could at least have said "OK" and could have "simply" googled it,it's not really hard to do it,i wouldnt put myself -if i was her- into that situation,i wrote them all and went to school,gave her the samples she said:I dont want them now,bring them later with your transcript,i could have KILLED her,i swear but i shut my mouth and said OK.
And i had two exams today,one from Literature and another from English,both were okay,i may have fucked up in Literature a little bit,though.In English exam,i gave lots of copies because i learned that other students' scores will affect mine,in a bad way of course because their's is not that pleasant,so i decided that i should help them in the exam and gave out copies,and most of them got high marks, here is an example of one of the guys' scores in the last four English exams 13-26-88-93 there is a contradiction,huh?....I knew they were all stupid and stuff i never thought good about them or i didn't expect much things coming from them but wouldn't you go and thank that girl who took your own responsibility even if it is for her own sake or not?Anyway i left school then to go to an Internet Cafe to finish this Toefl Registration thing,then i realized that i forgot to take mom's credit card with me and that i had to go back to home at first to get it then i tried to calm down myself, saying that " maybe its been better,i dont want to be around with stupid school uniform "(yeah that's not good,everybody wears same things,they try to put everyone in the same category,concealing our creativity from notice when we are living the bravest times in our lives-i'm gonna burn my skirt,honestly,i'll upload the video here you'll see)Then i was home,got dressed and went to Int. Cafe,chose a secluded computer,after giving a fake smile to that woman working there,and completed the whole electronic form AGAIN for the fifth time,i didn't even need to read what it asked me,i did all by heart,then i clicked on the LAST continue button and BLINKKKK "your credit card information is not correct" (i dont remember exactly what it was but it was something like this,anyway)then i tried not to panic and told myself that maybe i shouldn't have done it all by heart hahaha and decided to give it one more go,but it failed again,i called mom 7 times before she finally noticed it (she says it was in the silent mode then) then i started to yelling at her about why she hadnt checked her phone more often if there was a missed call,even though i told her before that i may need to call her if it goes wrong,i was so angry then that i couldn't remember for 3-4 seconds why i wanted to reach her that much,and when i remembered what it was and asked her,she said she didn't know why it didn't work and said she'd sort it out on Monday, and its friday now,do you know why i'm being so impatient about this toefl thing,because if quota gets full,i wont have a chance to take that exam,which is really bad because it's result will bring me to England next year,i despairingly said OK and went back home to sleep, but then i thought there is not much time to ÖSS now and sleeping in this limited time is not the best idea, and i was on my desk,trying to convince myself that i was actually begining to have fun studying Geography
Nothing interesting or important happened after that (as if happened before ) now i am going to sleep with the hope of having a great dream about hmmmm, nopes,that is to be kept in my mind ha ha :D
She may be stupid enough not to get what a reference letter must contain by herself, but she could at least have said "OK" and could have "simply" googled it,it's not really hard to do it,i wouldnt put myself -if i was her- into that situation,i wrote them all and went to school,gave her the samples she said:I dont want them now,bring them later with your transcript,i could have KILLED her,i swear but i shut my mouth and said OK.
And i had two exams today,one from Literature and another from English,both were okay,i may have fucked up in Literature a little bit,though.In English exam,i gave lots of copies because i learned that other students' scores will affect mine,in a bad way of course because their's is not that pleasant,so i decided that i should help them in the exam and gave out copies,and most of them got high marks, here is an example of one of the guys' scores in the last four English exams 13-26-88-93 there is a contradiction,huh?....I knew they were all stupid and stuff i never thought good about them or i didn't expect much things coming from them but wouldn't you go and thank that girl who took your own responsibility even if it is for her own sake or not?Anyway i left school then to go to an Internet Cafe to finish this Toefl Registration thing,then i realized that i forgot to take mom's credit card with me and that i had to go back to home at first to get it then i tried to calm down myself, saying that " maybe its been better,i dont want to be around with stupid school uniform "(yeah that's not good,everybody wears same things,they try to put everyone in the same category,concealing our creativity from notice when we are living the bravest times in our lives-i'm gonna burn my skirt,honestly,i'll upload the video here you'll see)Then i was home,got dressed and went to Int. Cafe,chose a secluded computer,after giving a fake smile to that woman working there,and completed the whole electronic form AGAIN for the fifth time,i didn't even need to read what it asked me,i did all by heart,then i clicked on the LAST continue button and BLINKKKK "your credit card information is not correct" (i dont remember exactly what it was but it was something like this,anyway)then i tried not to panic and told myself that maybe i shouldn't have done it all by heart hahaha and decided to give it one more go,but it failed again,i called mom 7 times before she finally noticed it (she says it was in the silent mode then) then i started to yelling at her about why she hadnt checked her phone more often if there was a missed call,even though i told her before that i may need to call her if it goes wrong,i was so angry then that i couldn't remember for 3-4 seconds why i wanted to reach her that much,and when i remembered what it was and asked her,she said she didn't know why it didn't work and said she'd sort it out on Monday, and its friday now,do you know why i'm being so impatient about this toefl thing,because if quota gets full,i wont have a chance to take that exam,which is really bad because it's result will bring me to England next year,i despairingly said OK and went back home to sleep, but then i thought there is not much time to ÖSS now and sleeping in this limited time is not the best idea, and i was on my desk,trying to convince myself that i was actually begining to have fun studying Geography
Nothing interesting or important happened after that (as if happened before ) now i am going to sleep with the hope of having a great dream about hmmmm, nopes,that is to be kept in my mind ha ha :D
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