Winesburg, Ohio

Winesburg, Ohio, is about people who have treated truths as guiding principles of life instead of beautiful, fluid possibilities and are hence deformed by their truths.

hemen başlıyorum millet!

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push your luck, it'll work.

kjhkjtgklufl

i quit stalking, and i'm determined to get higher scores on my lectures this time.I'll spend less time in stupid cafes and more time for reading, at least that way i would get rid of the feeling of being someone useless.Knowing more has always satisfied me so it'll help this time too, hopefully.

i have a class, called Introduction to Literature, we've seen over 10 short stories, plays etc and i didn't read them,i read their summaries from the internet, so its quite emberassing for someone studying this department.

I came to Ankara, surprisingly, i feel better here than İzmir.

Nil has a job interview today in İstanbul.If it goes OK, she will move there which is both bad and good.Its good cuz she will live where she wants and will be with her boyfriend whenever she wants as he lives there too and it also means that i'll have a home in İstanbul and i'll be able to go whenever i want, but still she'll be away ,its not like i see her everyday now, but we can see each other whenever we need.

I have always said that i don't like relatives and find them unnecessary.I mean you don't have to like someone just because you happened to have some kind of blood connection with them, and believe it or not, most of the time they are the ones whom you are hurt by.Things happened and its quite embarasing to write them all down here, just wanted to mention.

Raygun split.I felt bad, no matter what some of my friends say, i like them.

title

it might not be the right time
i might not be the right one
but there's something about us i want to say
cause there's something between us anyway

i might not be the right one
it might not be the right time
but there's something about us i've got to do
some kind of secret i will share with you

i need you more than anything in my life
i want you more than anything in my life
i'll miss you more than anyone in my life
i love you more than anyone in my life

Olayımızın bu olduğunu düşünüyorum, çok uygun bi şarkı desem de son dize kabul edilcek cinsten değil, o kadar da değilsindir yani

don't let me think too much, i go MADD

Bu stalker tarzı davranışlarımdan vazgeçmem lazım.Orda burda hakkında daha fazla şey öğrenmek istediğim insanlar şöyle dursun, internetten yaptığım stalkerlığın haddi hesabı yok :P, 3-4 yıldır zaman zaman aklıma gelen ve acaba şuan ne yapıyor dediğim bikaç insan var.Bu kişilerle de gerçek hayatta tanışmamış olmam işin acı kısmı, Vampirefreaks ve Myspace'i çürütüp ardından facebook'ta stalk etmeye devam ettiğim biri bile var.Sanırım bi zaman sonra hastalık haline geliyor ve elinde olmadan merak ediyosun.

anlaşabilceğin insanları etrafında bulmanın çok güç olduğu şu günlerde internet ilaç gibi yetişiyor.:P

şimdi daldan dala yapmadan önce son 2 saattir aklıma takılan 2 zattan bahsetmek istiyorm, aslında çok bahsetmekte istemiyorm sanırım böyle ezik taraflarımı çok su üstüne çıkarmak istemiyorum, neyse o zaman onu bırak bir insanı özlemen için gereken şeyler hakkında kafa yoruyorum ve karşı karşıya oturup konuşmadığım insanları özlemekten utanç duyuyorum.Evde sıkılmış haldeyken AYI' an bulup rastgele konuşmaya başladığım birinin şu an beni nasıl böyle fucked up hissettirebildiğini merak ediyorum.

Bu iki dili karıştırıp cümleleri bu şekilde kurmak gerçekten hiç hoşuma gitmiyor ama artık elimde olan bişe değil, it just happens, oops see, happened again.

Kimsenin nasılsa okumıcanı bilmiş olmanın verdiği rahatlıkla bu kadar weak-disciplined yazıyorum,if someone happens to read,kusura bakmayın

weak-disciplined diye bişey olmayabilir ama well-disciplined in tersi olarak aklıma ilk bu geldi.Bu yanlış bi kullanımsa ona da bahane olarak saatin 02:30 olmasını gösteriyorum, herşeyden bahane göstererek kurtulma olayını sevdim.

Üstteki cümlede de bi anlamsal bi bozukluk olduğunu düşünüyorum ama anlaşıldığı kadar artık.

i got a new bag today, it's brands called RUSSELL

i'm not busy at all, i'm actually quite bored.

piiiii

Graduated High School. yes

Kissed someone. yes

Smoked cigarettes. yes

Got so drunk you passed out yes.

Rode every ride at an amusement park. no

Collected something really stupid. yes

Helped someone. yes

Gone fishing. yes

Watched four movies in one night. i dont remember

Gone long periods of time with out sleep. yes

Lied to someone. yes

Snorted cocaine. no

Failed a class. hahah yes

Smoked weed. almost there

Dealt drugs. no

Been in a car accident. yes

Been in a tornado. no

Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid). no

Watched someone die. no

Been to a funeral. yes

Burned yourself. (accidentally) yes

Ran a marathon. no

Your parents got divorced. yes

Cried yourself to sleep. yes

Spent over $200 in one day. yes

Flown on a plane. yes

Cheated on someone. no

Been cheated on. no

Written a 10 page letter. no

Gone skiing.no

Been sailing.yes

Cut yourself.yes

Had a best friend. no

Lost someone you loved. no

Shoplifted something. yes

Been to jail.no

Had detention. no

Skipped school.yes

Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. yes

Stolen books from the library.no

Go to a different country.yes

Dropped out of school.no

Been in a mental hospital. no

Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. yes

Had an online diary. yup

Fired a gun. no

Gambled in a casino. no

Been in a school play. no

Been fired from a job. no

Taken a lie detector test. no

Swam with dolphins.no

Gone to sea world.nö

Attempted suicide.no

Voted for American/Australian Idol (canada) never :P

Written poetry.yes

Read more than 20 books a year. yes

Gone to Europe. yes

Loved someone you couldn’t have. yes

Wondered about your sexuality. no

Used a coloring book over age 12. yes, i have one now, is it sick

Had surgery.no

Had stitches.yes

Taken a taxi.yes

Seen the Washington Monument. no

Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. yes

Overdosed.no

Had a drug or alcohol problem. no

Been in a fist fight. no

Suffered any form of abuse. no

Had a hamster. (Class pet) no

Petted a wild animal.no

Used a credit card. yes

Gone surfing in California. no

Did “spirit day” at school. pilav günü?

Dyed your hair. yes

Got a tattoo. nöö:(

Had something pierced. no

Got straight A’s.no

Been on the Honor Roll. i dont know what that is :D

Known someone with HIV or AIDS. yes

Taken pictures with a webcam. yes

Started a fire.yes

Had a party while your parents weren’t home. yes

Gotten caught having a party while they were gone. nop