How can you feel a colour in your head?

I got into a uni in Turkey and i almost forgot all about it with the fear of not being able to go to England.I'm going to Ankara this Monday to check in at Hacettepe :S as it is Friday today it is my last day to collect the documents the uni wants me to bring such as statement of account etc

.Everyone asks about England and its irritating to answer them all.Wish i had never told anyone,but i was(still am) so excited about it that i couldn't do but telling everyone.

Now i try to get into through Clearing.I hope that works, bcuz i am sick of all this waiting.Ive been have to wait for e-mails, phone calls.Ive never asked someone to do something for me this much before this and its annoying to wait for them to do it,cuz they do it whenever they like.Its up to them.Is it 3 days to decide which uni?ohh waitt he can't do it now cuz he doesnt want to, he wants you to call him and beg for help and i cant/couldn't do it,so now i'm alone on my way and this may end up not going there.I dont even want to think about what'll happen if i cant get into through Clearing.I will have to study at Hacettepe, which is in Ankara, which totally sucks and i'll be in deep deep depression for four years.Mom will come after me,so its not possible to change my uni once i got in

.Everyone says you can go abroad by Erasmus.Who wants to go to study in Italy, Spain or France?, i donttt,i just want to go to England not to any other countries, and unis here usually send their students to these countries, not England.

everyone thinks they should comment on my going, everyone has something to say about it.You dont know me, you dont know how i want it, what ive been doing for months to achieve it, how i was stressfull before Toefl because i had to get ready for three other big exams at the same time, but you still think you've got something to say, your relative's or friend's stories.They went and couldnt find what they had been looking for and finally came back so the money was wasted, loadsa stories.Noone has something good to say, except for those who know me,they just say go ahead.thank you.

Don't want to hear about it

Every single one's got a story to tell
Everyone knows about it
From the Queen of England to the hounds of hell

hahahah

When i went to the bank today, mom's friend got my things done and while she was doing it,she told me that her daughter started to take Guitar lessons in the place where i took Drum lessons one and a half years a go.She told me while she was there she saw my teacher and they talked about me,(he told her good things aboutme,how sweett xXXx)i was surprised.I wanted to go and visit him many times,well whenever i pass by but i didn't because i thought he wouldn't remember me (i took lessons for three months),so after learning this, i thought about going but i didnt again :S i dont know why, but it'd be great to see him,anyway

and i think about someone very often and i hate myself for doing it.Theres no need