i don't want to fight.I want to get along with you.

how i learned what "worth" means:in my job, theres no promotion, no "thanks", the boss is horrible, im not learning anything, 9am-9pm, so its not worth it. Thanks Gavin, this is vey catchy, :P .

Useless, you ARE !!

"The herpes virus is known to attack during times of weakness in your immune system and stress can cause this.Stress is definitely a factor for herpes outbreaks. Many people experience the most recurring outbreaks during stressful times and instances when they are ill."

*yes,i am under stress

*yes,i am ill (the flu)

so,yes i have herpes on my lippp

I'm waiting for my visa and im really sick of waiting, really, very muchh.I missed Freshers',it is this week and i missed it.I'm here, home while everyone else is at uni, enjoying this week.I could swallow this easily if it was my fault, but it was not,i did my best.

there were some people who didnt want me to go, and even some stupid people who said, "i hope you cant go", so i believe now that the reason i coudln't go is their negative thoughts.I hate you.

It has been holiday for 3 days, could i ask more?It kept back my visa's arrival.

I hope i get it before the weekend or i may decide not to go.

Two days a go, i went to Çeşme with my mom.We swimmed then went to Alaçatı, which was a great place.I really liked it i was planning to write a looong blog about my travel, about what i saw etc. but now i think theres no need.

Merlinized*

yes,i've been down, ive been down, ive been feeling down.

I miss someone i dont know and want something i'll never be able to have.I'll say it again ,i hope i feel this way, because i'm still a teenager and i hope it passes in two years.

Ive been away from home, in Ank, got back today.We had a good time with Nil and Army.I did lots of things about uni, registered for visa, went Hacettepe to ask if i can have a gap year for Brunel-oh yes btw i got into Brunel ;)-and my cousins helped me with these :)

If it all goes according to my plan, i'll get my visa before the weekend and will go on Sunday which means i'll catch Freshers.

I found some people doing my course at Brunel.I added a Turkish guy, he confirmed the request then removed-rude-i was not gonna eat you, no worries, i never do :P

Then i added some other guy, he doesnt talk, i dont know why.What a great start,huh?I dont mind though.

And i've decided to write a book on how to keep boys away from you.

Does anybody know where the toilets are?

i saw a boy today and i wanted to put a leather jacket on him, because his shoulders looked perfect.

After coming home from Ekin's at 9 am, i went straight to bed and slept till 4 pm :S.I checked Ucas to see what Zahit had done and got really mad when i saw that he didn't make the choices for Clearing.I called him and he said he's waiting for unis to release my application on Ucas so its not his fault.Upon learning this, i e-mailed to two unis four times.He did this too but we want to be sure that they receive the e-mails we sent, or else they may say "no we haven't receieved it, so you are withdrawn(Brunel)".

So here, me, waiting again for other people to fulfill their responsibilities.

I am going to Ankara with Cettin, which is great, cuz i wont get bored on the road and we're gonna watch films together etc.

How can you feel a colour in your head?

I got into a uni in Turkey and i almost forgot all about it with the fear of not being able to go to England.I'm going to Ankara this Monday to check in at Hacettepe :S as it is Friday today it is my last day to collect the documents the uni wants me to bring such as statement of account etc

.Everyone asks about England and its irritating to answer them all.Wish i had never told anyone,but i was(still am) so excited about it that i couldn't do but telling everyone.

Now i try to get into through Clearing.I hope that works, bcuz i am sick of all this waiting.Ive been have to wait for e-mails, phone calls.Ive never asked someone to do something for me this much before this and its annoying to wait for them to do it,cuz they do it whenever they like.Its up to them.Is it 3 days to decide which uni?ohh waitt he can't do it now cuz he doesnt want to, he wants you to call him and beg for help and i cant/couldn't do it,so now i'm alone on my way and this may end up not going there.I dont even want to think about what'll happen if i cant get into through Clearing.I will have to study at Hacettepe, which is in Ankara, which totally sucks and i'll be in deep deep depression for four years.Mom will come after me,so its not possible to change my uni once i got in

.Everyone says you can go abroad by Erasmus.Who wants to go to study in Italy, Spain or France?, i donttt,i just want to go to England not to any other countries, and unis here usually send their students to these countries, not England.

everyone thinks they should comment on my going, everyone has something to say about it.You dont know me, you dont know how i want it, what ive been doing for months to achieve it, how i was stressfull before Toefl because i had to get ready for three other big exams at the same time, but you still think you've got something to say, your relative's or friend's stories.They went and couldnt find what they had been looking for and finally came back so the money was wasted, loadsa stories.Noone has something good to say, except for those who know me,they just say go ahead.thank you.

Don't want to hear about it

Every single one's got a story to tell
Everyone knows about it
From the Queen of England to the hounds of hell

hahahah

When i went to the bank today, mom's friend got my things done and while she was doing it,she told me that her daughter started to take Guitar lessons in the place where i took Drum lessons one and a half years a go.She told me while she was there she saw my teacher and they talked about me,(he told her good things aboutme,how sweett xXXx)i was surprised.I wanted to go and visit him many times,well whenever i pass by but i didn't because i thought he wouldn't remember me (i took lessons for three months),so after learning this, i thought about going but i didnt again :S i dont know why, but it'd be great to see him,anyway

and i think about someone very often and i hate myself for doing it.Theres no need

cheese is a kind of meat

I made a blunder today.hope nobody was offended.ıts not like i meant it.Sometimes i think i just shouldn't speak.I met Ceren today.Shes been my friend for 4 years i guess and its the second time i saw her.I guess we first met on Myspace,i dont remember now.Shes a good friend and brought two lovely friends with her, we talked about MÖ.SS, gays, cities, unis and films.I really had fun,to be honest,i always love meeting new people.I love to be in curiosity about their interests and i want them t

o give me new ideas, introduce me to the new ways of things.

I want to doll up boys.I want them to wear what i like and its been too much latelyI wish i could draw something, then i could explain my ideas better, its irritating to describe what i like.Simply drawing it would be much better but tight jeans and leather or shiny jackets are almost essential,oh and cowboy boots.I just decided noww that i want to put photos of those guys having a good taste in fashion up on here,yes i'll do it.

OOOkayy,i want to st

art with this guy.I found him on a street fashion website.This is one of my favorites and its how i'm gonna doll up my future husband on our wedding ajhhahaha :P yess he'll look exacty like this.

Starting from the top, he is wearing a black hat which has white bits on it and wearing a hat is almost always good,cu

z it looks posh and if your head has a stupid shape you can cover it with a hat.I love love his jacket, the dore thing and the black bits on

the jacket looks perfect to me.I told you tight jeans are essential.I love his shoes as well i would buy and wear them were i to ever find.I'm sure this guy is not alien or smth then i keep asking why why why i cant see anyone around like this guy.

Uh Oh Uh Oh :P

i realized that
what would that mama do uh oh uh oh Pixie Lott and Leave Britney alone Chris Croker looks almost identical :P:P

I like Chris moree btw :)