18 Mayıs 2009 Pazartesi

Noel's hunger

i found this in my school's music class,the moment i saw this i was like "Noel Fielding was here" he came,bit the record and left

this is his bite

he was just not that hungry this time but it was Noel










2-3 months a go me and Casot bought postcards to send Noel,we thought he'd like it,we thought maybe he would give a place to these in Nabootique :)
















I may add some silver on the envelope as he loves shiny shiny things :)

Louis vi-French Duke --was not a duke though :P

i want to be drunk or want to sleep all the time so that i wouldn't have to think about things that annoy me and i wouldnt feel guilty
you are happy if you dont expect much,its ok when you get it and if you dont,its still ok,but when you put strict restrictions to yourself like i do,then you feel like shit even in the process of getting it,i dont want to talk about what happens when you dont get it.
ahhhhhh im being boring againnn,sorry
ok gonna show you something funny now



this is Louis vi of France,i wanted to know more about him after watching a movie about him,it was all French,though i didnt get a word of it, i kept watching as it was so interesting and funny to see what they wore here is a couple of pics of Louis Vi,he looks sooooo funny,i wonder why he had to show his legs,it doesnt look sexy etc. it looks just funny :D how many times a day would he go to the toilet,i feel bad for him or for his servants :D

17 Mayıs 2009 Pazar

Happy Birtday To Me

JUNKIE QUEEN:casot made this,this is how i looked n that night hahahha D:



happy birthday to me
16th may was my birthday,and now im 18 :) Although,at first i didn't want to celebrate it for some stupid (!) reasons now i can easily say that im glad i did it,and im so eager to write about that night here :)
On Thursday me and Müge went to find a appropriate bar/club to celebrate my b-day,I was hopeless to find somewhere i like, though.We came acroos a bar that Merve talked about it the other day,saying her friend's friend was its owner and i should go and see there,we got in and i liked the place,it is not that big,i liked it being so and drinks rnot expensive so i thought yeah its the best i can find :D the manager (i guess) told me that there would be a DJ,i was ok with this as i wanted to dance silly but i quickly asked him if they were playing those Turkish songs (like Serdar Ortaç etc ıggghh) he said no no no,we dont,i said ok,and went to order a B-day cake,as there was not a brochure about what they can make and as i decided to do these in the last minute i simply ordered a cake for 15ppl and told them to write 18th on it all in pink hahah after arranging this,i went back to meet my friends and had hubble-bubble with mint,i wanted to get back home early as i had planned to dye my hair (to red) that night,mom did it,she did it well this time, the last time she dyed my hair (to black) she was angry with me about smth i dont remember now and after she had dyed it,i could see some shining red bits on my head hahaha that's the new hair,i just took it for you :P <------(nobody follows my blog though haghhf) the next day i woke up early to get ready for school,though im finished with there now,i still have to go there at times to give mom's petition which indicates that she does know that i dont go to school any more to get ready for MÖ.SS and YDS,anyway i gave it to a bitch called C*N* :D and got my transcript and reference letters AT LASTTT,after waiting for 2 hours for school manager to come and sign my transcript etc,i was all done with school,then met my mom to go to the hairdresser's (i could have killed the man,as when i got back to home,my hair didnt look so different from the way it had been before i went to the hairdresser's and i had to straighten it :@) and i bought these high-heeled shoes......



home again to get ready and i waited for two of my friends to come to my home as i didnt want to go to Angel alone,they came (late) and we took our way to there,when we reached Angel,there was live music,some guys were playing shitty shitty songs and i prayed that it would end before my friends came and it luckily ended :clap
i recognized a guy working there,and i liked him and kept talking to him hahaha the more i got drunk the cuter he seemed (esp when he laughed) and all of my friends were aware of this of course,laughing even when i asked him to bring the cake :D the music was shit,i must say,began with good songs then i can even remember hearing Serdar falan :D,but i get that you dont mind that much about it when youre errr drunk,anyway we soon realized that it was a gay bar hahhaha, i didnt mind having them around but some of my friends did and as we didnt want to miss the last boat to KSK we had to leave,of course i didnt want to leave(had plans in my mind) then mete told me that if i liked he could told him to come with us, he did this to persuade me to go out :D i said OK and i dont remember much after that we came home,Gizem put me to her bed,and the only thing that i remember before closing my eyes is guy's playing a game on computer.
the next day,i got up 6 in the morning i guess,everyone was sleeping,so i tried to sleep more and thought about the previous night,all seemed so blurry at first but then i started to remember things in order,scenes flashing up in my head,me hating the music,me throwing up,me opening my presents and liking them and me talking to the guy...
though it was still early,i was dying to know more about what happened the previous night and i went to the room where gizem and ekin slept and they told me that mete talked to him,said him that one of his friends liked him and the guy asked is it a girl?and when mete said YES he said that he was GAY,i was like "whattttt"
i wanted to hear all these again from metes mouth and we went to wake guys up,and talked about this,all said"dont be stupid etc". i said fine but yesterday's main topic was HIM,him being gay,him being rabbit face etc.
now ı plan to go there again as i dont think he is gay :S we'll see whatll happen next time i go there,probably this Tuesday. pff
I REGRET REGRET not taking any photos that night, i feel so bad about it,me or my friends could have taken some photos but we didnt,i was after smth else,and it seems like they were so as well
Note:Casot has three lovely kittens (watched a video of them,they looked very small ) she named them Vince(Noir),Shinigami and Minerva i guess,,i say i guess cuz she changed their name a lot,for example Shinigami's name was Gökçe once hahaha

13 Mayıs 2009 Çarşamba

Mortified,really !

today was supposed to be the last day of my high school life,but it couldn't be,because of my irresponsible behaviours,i had an exam today (logic :S) and i didnt do anything about it yesterday as i thought i would write what i need on my desk,theres no point in knowing all those unuseful things not epecially now when i have lots in my mind,anyway,she came (during the exam) and saw what we wrote on desks and the exam was over,i asked her if she could do an oral examination the next day and she said:we'll see,this may mean yes,so now i studied and am ready for tomorrow,i didnt study it yesterday just not to waste my time (i thought studying maths or geography would be much useful) and as it'll be much harder,i spent more time studying on it today,thats ironic,isn't it?
and not a nice thing to do when you request reference letters from your teachers (i didn't want her to write,though, as she doesnt know me,why?-because she doesnt attend classes much,even today,on examination day,she was late for 10 mins :S )
so now i have to go to school (!) one more day and i wont be able to dye my hair tonight,gonna do it tomorrow :S hope all goes well tomo :S
Note:I got vaccinated again today,(Hepatit B-didnt hurt,i actually liked it)

9 Mayıs 2009 Cumartesi

Twitter Day

HellÖÖÖ
nothing much happened today,really.but i want to talk about my stupid dream last night
i was in a Placebo concert i dont know if it was in Turkey or not but as i left the concert and came home to pee :D guees it was here hahahah İ was there with Casot and i saw there were lots of shiny gloves on the stage when i saw them i jumped on the stage (there were no security guards :S ) and i started to throw it to the crowd,well one to the crowd one to my pocket hahaha and then as i said before i went back to home to pee :D and before i could reach Placebo again i woke up to another silly day and even before breakfast i did some tests but i couldn't finish it as i got really bored,and it may sound stupid now but while i was dressing i couldn't find my fav trousers though i looked for it everywhere and i started to cry but it was not for the trousers,it was like i just found a proper (!) reason to get angry,i guess i did it because i am under a lot of stress these days,because ÖSS and YDS getting closer and weather gets hotter day by day and i never seem to get what i want and my birthday s getting closer as well but i dont feel like doing anything on that day for some reasons and i still havent registered for Ielts or Toefl :@ and lots more and mom's idea for cheering me up was to make a new style to my hair which made me look like a freak anyway i picked another trouser and went to the course,reluctantly.I didn't attend the last class again its been like a habit now,it was philosophy and we decided to go to Konak Pier to get Bkool,i didn't get,though.And as tomorrow is Mother's day i thought i should buy something for my mom,there was nothing in Pier that i thought my mom would like but i bought a necklace for her, its a imitation of "heart of the ocean" youll remember it from Titanic,they were looking for it and there were %50 discount on it so i got it and came home,found mom doing Yoga again and that's all
ohhh and i was about to forget :P i got a Twitter account today,texted to check and it worked,this made me happy hahhaha :D

8 Mayıs 2009 Cuma

One more boring day !

i woke up even earlier today (5:45 am) to write the samples of reference letter down to give my teachers at school,yes i brought them samples,and yess they call themselves teacher,even one of them call herself Turkish/Literature teacher,which means -i think- that she should know all types of writing,cosindering now that it has been her who taught (!) us to write things like essay etc.And when i asked her if she could do that for me,she simply said:I dont know how to write it,i've never done it,bring samples to me.".We didn't came to this so easy but i'm not feeling like telling the other story.
She may be stupid enough not to get what a reference letter must contain by herself, but she could at least have said "OK" and could have "simply" googled it,it's not really hard to do it,i wouldnt put myself -if i was her- into that situation,i wrote them all and went to school,gave her the samples she said:I dont want them now,bring them later with your transcript,i could have KILLED her,i swear but i shut my mouth and said OK.
And i had two exams today,one from Literature and another from English,both were okay,i may have fucked up in Literature a little bit,though.In English exam,i gave lots of copies because i learned that other students' scores will affect mine,in a bad way of course because their's is not that pleasant,so i decided that i should help them in the exam and gave out copies,and most of them got high marks, here is an example of one of the guys' scores in the last four English exams 13-26-88-93 there is a contradiction,huh?....I knew they were all stupid and stuff i never thought good about them or i didn't expect much things coming from them but wouldn't you go and thank that girl who took your own responsibility even if it is for her own sake or not?Anyway i left school then to go to an Internet Cafe to finish this Toefl Registration thing,then i realized that i forgot to take mom's credit card with me and that i had to go back to home at first to get it then i tried to calm down myself, saying that " maybe its been better,i dont want to be around with stupid school uniform "(yeah that's not good,everybody wears same things,they try to put everyone in the same category,concealing our creativity from notice when we are living the bravest times in our lives-i'm gonna burn my skirt,honestly,i'll upload the video here you'll see)Then i was home,got dressed and went to Int. Cafe,chose a secluded computer,after giving a fake smile to that woman working there,and completed the whole electronic form AGAIN for the fifth time,i didn't even need to read what it asked me,i did all by heart,then i clicked on the LAST continue button and BLINKKKK "your credit card information is not correct" (i dont remember exactly what it was but it was something like this,anyway)then i tried not to panic and told myself that maybe i shouldn't have done it all by heart hahaha and decided to give it one more go,but it failed again,i called mom 7 times before she finally noticed it (she says it was in the silent mode then) then i started to yelling at her about why she hadnt checked her phone more often if there was a missed call,even though i told her before that i may need to call her if it goes wrong,i was so angry then that i couldn't remember for 3-4 seconds why i wanted to reach her that much,and when i remembered what it was and asked her,she said she didn't know why it didn't work and said she'd sort it out on Monday, and its friday now,do you know why i'm being so impatient about this toefl thing,because if quota gets full,i wont have a chance to take that exam,which is really bad because it's result will bring me to England next year,i despairingly said OK and went back home to sleep, but then i thought there is not much time to ÖSS now and sleeping in this limited time is not the best idea, and i was on my desk,trying to convince myself that i was actually begining to have fun studying Geography
Nothing interesting or important happened after that (as if happened before ) now i am going to sleep with the hope of having a great dream about hmmmm, nopes,that is to be kept in my mind ha ha :D

7 Mayıs 2009 Perşembe

Baby Care

HELLO!I LOVE YOU.